News I can do without

In the two classrooms I'm in as a TSS there is a pregnant aide in each. Alright this stuff happens. Today I get the news that in one of the classrooms the teacher is three months pregnant. Oh my gawd I wanted to crawl in a hole and cry. I felt like someone punched me in the stomach.
I can't wait for our RE appointment next Tuesday. I want to schedule my IVF w/ICSI NOW. Make that yesterday.
I was in T.arget last week for odds and ends. I hear a child crying. Then I hear why he's crying--the mother screaming at him. And she wasn't just screaming at him she was saying things to him like f*** y** and asking him if she scared the sh** out of him. She had another little boy with her. I'm going to have to do major fertility treatments and God gives her two. I know it's not my place to understand but I so want to understand--just a little.

Happy Birthday!!

Happy Birthday to my best friend Magnus!! He is 10 yrs old today. I can't believe it. It seems like yesterday my Mom and Dad brought him home. He was so little he needed help up the front steps. Magnus was a well fed puppy--his belly was so big that when he went to scratch his ear he couldn't reach it.

Happy Birthday Magnus!! Thank you for being my best friend!!
Love,
Susan

Bugs

I'm sick. We call it having the bug in my family. I knew my schedule was going to be crazy with my two jobs, three classes, an internship and helping Elisabeth with her school and keeping up with the house (kinda) would be a lot but I didn't think it would hit this soon.

Goings on

I couldn't wait until Jan 5 for my RE appointment so I bumped it up to Nov 4 (my birthday!). It's an initial consultation but I already know our diagnosis and what we have to do. I expect to get right down to the nitty gritty and talk IVF w/ICSI details.
I have my evaluation for my back this Tuesday. And then I begin P.T. I hope this will bring answers and some kind of relief for my back. Yesterday I had a terrible day with pain. I was getting into my car and it went into spasms. What fun.
I just want my back to be good and I want a baby. Is that too much to ask for?