Trying new things

I've decided to take matters into my own hands. Since we can't do i.vf right now I'm going to do what I can by myself. I began today by taking my temp before getting out of bed and writing it down. I'm going to follow the book Taking Charge of Your Fertility. In this book they give you a cd that you can use to chart your temps and cm, etc. I also saw at weggie's (We.gman's--my most favorite food store ever! Seriously I can live there:-) ) that in their organic food aisle they have tea that promotes a "healthy womb". I'm going to pick some up the next time I'm there. I know it won't solve all my if problems but it will be good to be proactive.
My interview is tomorrow in front of the whole school board. I'm prepping myself both mentally--reading over my Teaching Reading and Principles of Teaching books and physically for it--paint my nails and give myself a facial. I am very interested to see how this interview will be conducted. Only one member of the board is in education, a principal actually, and this suprises me. These board members appoint teachers, shouldn't they be in education themselves to be able to do that job well? I'm sure they have questions provided to them by the superintendent. I know also the board members take into consideration the recommendations of the superintendent and the interviewers. My Mom says I will do well. That I'm a very good speaker and passionate about children and that will come through in the interview. This is my first real interview for a real job. I'm so ready to become a teacher I can taste it.

I'm so ready

I'm finding out more people around me are getting pregnant. It makes me very sad. And frustrated because we don't have the money to do treatments. I live my life in two week increments. Two weeks after CD 1 I ovulate and two weeks after that I wait for my period not to show up--but of course it still does.
I'm ready to get pregnant and share that experience with M and E. I'm ready for the late night feedings, crying, teething and poopy diapers. I still have all of E's baby stuff. I refuse to get rid of anything.
I still really don't understand why God gives babies to crack heads and people who kill their children and infertiles are left out in the wind? People who want babies can't have them but the derelicts of the world are fertile. Oh and the Du.ggars are now having their 19 kid? wtf? Michelle Du.ggar said she can't believe this is happening. Yeah, me either. I know it's not my place to know why things like this happen but I would just like to have an inkling.

Interviews and news

I received a phone call today for my second interview!! It's this Tuesday before the whole school board. I'm excited and nervous.
I subbed on Monday and today. I was in for the teacher I was with for student teaching on Monday--and E was in the class too! Quite a day. I spent this morning with kindergarten and the afternoon with first grade. Oh how I love the younger ones. I had to observe other teachers as part of my student teaching requirement. I did third and fifth grade. A huge difference in the classroom atmosphere and they don't get to do cool crafts and activities like the younger ones do. It solidified my choice to be with k-2. But I will go with where they tell me too. I just want to get a job!
I finally received my certification from the state. Holy crap--it should have been covered in gold! And come with a job offer!

Going down

I started running and working out again. Wow what a difference. I ran four miles yesterday at a decent pace and it feels so good. My clothes are getting looser and the number is going down on the scale. I do my morning runs after I drop E off. I do need to start running early in the morning so that if I get called to sub I'm ready to go. I'm so not a morning person. Any ideas?

Job news

The school board hired two people and I was not one of those people. They are still hiring two more people. Our neighbor is on the school board and is trying his best to get me in. M spoke with his yesterday and got the scoop. There is a distant cousin on M's side that we share a last name with and apparently he's not well liked. Having the same last name is hindering me getting a teaching job. I have never even met this man nor has M. It sucks that they think I have something to do with him. But there are still two openings and I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Waiting is so hard

The school board had their emergency meeting tonight at 7 pm. I hope my phone will be ringing tomorrow. Keep the prayers coming and your fingers crossed!!
I called my Dad after my interview on Friday to tell him how things went and he gave me the news of my great aunt passing away. She was very sick--lung cancer. My parents, E and myself went to the viewing and funeral in n.j. It was very sad because she was such a great lady--very loving and a good time to be with. My parents lived there for a little bit after they got married (my parents anniversary and my great aunt's is the same day). My mom and her used to do ceramics and my mom would tell me she had such a good time laughing and listening to stories about the family--my family is great--I love them to death but they are crazy, crazy in a good way. So even though it was a somber occasion I was happy to see my family and catch up with them.

September 2 is a special day

Three years today at 3:30 pm we were married. We almost forgot about it because we were excited about E's first day of first grade today. I feel like we've been together forever. They say you should marry your best friend--I'm so happy I did!