Musings

If you would have asked me at the start of my journey for a second child if I thought I would be still trying for another baby fours years later I would have answered no.
I will be 34 in November. One more year until I'm 35. That's the age when your egg quality decreases. I feel like I'm playing beat the clock, but not with my best ability because all fertility treatments in Pa are out of pocket. I.vf is put off to the side until I get a teaching job. How long do you try for? When do you start to explore other options? I know we each have our own breaking point. I get frustrated because I know what I want. And there is no way of knowing whether my dream will come true for one more baby.

My belly is getting better. It is now slightly sore. I slept better last night (I'm a side sleeper and I couldn't sleep on my side because doing so would pull my stitches).

So proud

Here is our girl Mel giving her first book reading.

Reading & Discussion of "Navigating the Land of IF" by Melissa Ford from StirrupQueens on Vimeo.

Being an infertile comes with a lot of questions and I think Mel does an excellent job of helping us out. Please click here for another video of Mel.

Doing ok

My surgery went alright. There was endometriosis on by bladder and two polyps--a piece was taken for biopsy. I see my gyno on July 24 for a follow up. I have questions of course about the endo and polyps--how does this affect me getting pregnant, will it come back again, where were the polyps, etc.
I am feeling a little better today. I slept on Wednesday and yesterday. I forgot how much it takes out of you. I keep comparing this surgery to my gallbladder but I shouldn't because I stayed in the hospital for that.
I encountered something new: B.air Paws inflatable gowns. They attach a hose to your gown and you control the temperature. I was warm and toasty!! Keeping you warm before surgery is supposed to help reduce infections.
We got home around 7 pm or so. I couldn't figure out why it took us so long to get home. I remember being in recovery at 4 pm. When they wheeled me back to my pre-op room where M was the nurse told me to rest and I took an hour long nap! M said you could really mess with someone when they're medicated. I agree.

Me in my inflatable gown.

L Day

Today is my surgery. It will be at 2:30 p. m. M asked if I'm nervous. A little. I know I will be very nervous right before I go in. That's how I was with my gall bladder surgery.
It's very important to me to get pregnant on so many levels. With E I was abused and after I left I was dealing with the divorce and seeing a therapist ( I have been meaning to write about that. I'm getting up the gumption). It should have been the best time of my life to be pregnant with my first child and I was robbed of that. I want to have a child with M. I believe it would be one of the best experiences to create life with the person you love.
I am holding on to hope that today will go okay.

Prep Work - Part 2

I drank all 10 oz of magnesium citrate. Eh gad--that stuff is nasty! It tastes like really sour lemon soda. I have to laugh. My orders for today are to eat and drink clear fluids/food. But it all goes right through you so why eat anyway? Ironically I did eat wild strawberry j.ello and vanilla tea (no milk of course).
The hospital called to confirm the surgery for tomorrow and to give me a rundown of things I will be continuing to do. All I want to do is eat food you can't see through.

Prep Work- Part 1

This morning I went for blood work for my lap on Wednesday. I have donated blood and had to have blood work done many, many times but I still do not like the pick and feel of the needle in my arm. I guess it's just one of those things that I will never get used to. My phlebotomist had this on her cork board:






I got out my j.ello to make for tomorrow. Although I'm not sure how much I will be eating because I have to drink a liquid that will flush out my system. The directions state to drink it in the morning to make sure it has enough time to work completely.
I do hope to get some anwers from the surgery. I also hope it's not anything too bad. My Mom mentioned endometriosis. It is hard to toss another item into the ring that hinders me getting pregnant.
I'm going to the library today to get some light reading. I figured since I will be stuck in the house and in the bathroom I should have some good stuff to entertain me. Do you have any suggestions?
My holiday weekend ended well. I went with my family to see fireworks in the neighboring town. I enjoyed the show and spending time with my husband and daughter. I did catch fireworks at work Saturday night. The finale anyway. We really have a great view from the OG patio. We also have really great sunsets in our neck of the woods.
Thank you to Mel for wishing me well on my lap and for posting it on LCFA! She takes such good care of us all ;-)

July 4

Happy 4th of July!! I wish all of you a safe and happy holiday! If any of you are in my area feel free to drop by the OG and watch the fireworks with me on the patio ;-)